Stories From the Inside: Austin

August 3, 2020

My name is Austin. I first learned about the COVID-19 pandemic watching the news, local and national. Seeing the progression of COVID-19, my first thoughts were for my grandparents, mother, and myself whom we all have medical complications or are also elderly.

I myself have multiple sclerosis and live with those challenges every day. My immune system is weak and if I contract Covid-19 I fear I won’t survive it. I’ve already lost one family member, my cousin on my mother’s side of the family to Covid-19. I found out recently more members of my family have Covid-19 and I fear I will never see them or talk to them again due to the chances of this virus taking them from my family and me.

Being locked up in Idaho prison isn’t pleasant on the best of days. With this pandemic everyone’s stress levels, including mine, are high. No one, including myself, can practice social distancing effectively. I live in a room with another person, which said room also has a toilet and is my bathroom. Sanitation isn’t satisfactory, no matter how much we clean. Our cleaning supplies are insufficient; we are not allowed to sterilize with bleach or any cleaner beyond Windex. Being in prison is being stuck in a petri dish environment, when one person gets sick the whole institution gets sick like wildfire.

Idaho Corrections has Covid-19 cases it’s not if I will get Covid-19, but a matter of when. The prison vents are not hospital grade; they blow everything in the air though them. So when someone with Covid-19 has a cough or sneeze it will get sucked into the ventilation and spread around, since Covid-19 can survive in the air for over 10 minutes. So it’s not an if, it’s a when will I get diagnosed with Covid-19. It’s a fear now that I will die of Covid complications and not see my loved ones again.

I may have done some stupid things when I was young, but I wasn’t sentenced to life fixed or a death sentence. By IDOC not releasing me from this death trap, I feel I’ve been potentially re-sentenced to death. Furthermore, there are numerous inmates on or past their fixed time and IDOC refuses to release them, still flopping parole for the most ridiculous reasons. Where is the mercy?

We are still human beings, not meat, not numbers, not a source of revenue for governments ends. Where is the moral integrity?

I hope mercy will be shown if not to me, since I know the severity of my crime will most likely not qualify for any early or release in general, but to have mercy on everyone else, especially those who are on, or past their fixed time, the elderly and sick, and those who have done a substantial amount of their time. But, ultimately I believe everyone not convicted and sentenced to death should be released, since death is a real possibility to all inmates with the Covid-19 in the institutions. I wish everyone luck in these days of uncertainty and crisis.


About the Stories from the Inside story project:

ACLU of Idaho, Black and Pink Boise, and HumanKind have collaboratively reached out to people who are currently incarcerated to share their view of the COVID-19 from inside Idaho jails and prisons. The experiences detailed in the submitted letters and responses are reflective of a prison system that lacks any standard of medical care for inmates and IDOC staff in the face of a global pandemic—even as the number of infected continues to rise. With the authors’ permission, we are publishing these letters here so their stories from the inside can be known.

Prisoners are people — and these are the real experiences they are having on a daily basis. All stories have been shared with written consent. 

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